she wanted to see Moscow too

Mr Gorbachev tear down this wall

call for delivery

I have never been close to your butt

Daaamn, Okay, I'm ready, I've got a golf cart, and beds all over the place, views of the mountains, and now, remember, we are making a documentary and we want to be able to market this!

Couch wheres that sub im hungry

honestly, I preferred East Berlin to Paris... LOL. But that was just the timing of my travel.

I can see vaash now. Wearing a beret and walking a poodle under the Eiffel tower

(Long mental rambling just a heads up LOL)

I'm sorry I haven't been around more, r/t has been rough, between current p/t appointments / doc appts/ taking care of my mom and helping her and the senior center things have been chaotic. My Fibromyalgia has been more rough lately but that could be stress and depression. f

My mom and I don't have any friends, no one asks us out to lunch, or to go to a movie, or hell even come over and play cards. Soooo feeling isolated and alone as well as lonely has be a lot. We are both depressed and she's had a rough couple of days with more confusion and she's been snappy because she realizes she's forgetting. It's not super bad at the moment it's just noticeable so that sets my head on spin.

We would love to travel or go somewhere but with all the nightmare stories I've heard about travel we both have not been that motivated. Just kinda feels like a hopeless cycle with no expectant change in the near future. I need to get back into r/p because I could use the distraction but by he time I have time I feel exhausted and depressed makes for bad r/p usually.

p/t has told me that they are fairly certain that I'll need a fusion in the future so then I worry well who will help me out, how will we get things done etc etc (you know that spin your head goes in when you have anxiety with a touch of ocd)

I just have this overwhelming feeling of chaotic around me and I don't know how to fix it. I know I should meditate but I can't get my body to relax enough to have it work. I swear my body doesn't know how to relax I have to consciously tell myself to relax and then as soon as I'm not actively thinking about it my muscles tighten back up again.

The issues in my back are effecting my feet and walking, so that's not helping, I feel ugly, fat, unloved, unwanted, and feel in nooo way pretty in any way. I've tried to use make up and it looks bad so that just makes me feel more pathetic. I can't cry because ...well it won't fix anything and it will just make my head stuffy and I'll feel more miserable than I already do. I find myself wishing for multiple personalities just so I could cope with things better. Hell I think my cat might even be depressed who knows.

I would love some animal therapy but can't have that when you live in a tiny town with nothing. I mean really we have 1 gas station, 2 dollar generals, no traffic lights or stops signs but we have 3 bars?. Welcome to small town areas.

I'm sorry to have rambled on incoherently for so long I just trying to get some of my thoughts and feelings out of my head and felt the need to vent... have a pity party... and whine. So if you have made it to this point in my writing I thank you for your time, patience and listening.

*leaving lots of hugs / love/ and understanding for anyone out there who needs them*

how very cool..lucky you

meant to go with a girl I was close with..but alas..

Dang, twisty clouds no fun, beryl being a bitch down south way early, anyway, yeah, some places it will be too dry to shoot fireworks, and dang, we live in interesting times, I'm with Tiny Tim, "God bless us everyone."

Versaille was just beyond words... walking through and knowing the history of the place.

*mutters*. I think I have an Avatar for R rated garden talk...

Kentucky bites buff butt🦬

yes.... it was a while ago. Parisiennes are a snooty lot but the city was pretty awesome.

Was that bad surrender joke vaash about ww2 lol

*giggles*. Xrated garden talk? That could be interesting.

I've been to Paris, London and Versailles............Kentucky

is it as lovely as ut seems in movies n pics?

LOL... wow... you must have done sumpthin' wicked bad