Rt day to day
It's really the same.
deadgirl and one
Other I confide in

And that's it

deadgirl being
The one I confide in the most
Rt/vt

Yes please lady

What is on offer?

Here in this place
It's dead girl and I
And one other
I confide in

A couple of others come and go
But mostly aren't there like they were
So we've lost depth

Looking out again

You know
No emotional support
Lies
Bullshit
Shitty behavior
Disrespect.

My circle was small
It has gotten
Alot smaller

In just the last year
5 people have gone
Or come and gone

Some left
Some I pushed out
To leave
Because their
Behavior
Was having negative
Affects

Or all they really brought
To the table
Was negativity

Obviously not

But it did cause me to
Look over those relationships
That are beneficial
Vs those that really
When I looked at them
Offered me nothing

Sits around

Well that was a terrible
Sentence

I'm actually a little worried
As to if I've caused
Permanent damage

Everything I've read
Says what I am going
Through is part of detox

I hope so
I can feel the headache creeping
And thr focus dwindling

Can I get you something

Hello

And it's not that I ever
Expected anyone
In my life to extend
The money she has given me
Most people
I know what I owe her
Is a years salary to most

It's about 3 months salary
To her ...

I'm not discounting her help
Just saying I realize
Others are incapable
Of such help

Enters

She has been true to her words
And when I need help
The most , she has been there

Given the strides
I have taken since April
And that horrible
Place I went to ..

I hope to never ask her agsin
And to repay her

Every dime and some interest
She probably won't take the interest
But ill offer

Return

Returning to the pub $1,000 richer. That was easy money! Checking the voicemail to see if there were any additional calls while she was out running.

Jacuzzi

Side note

I reach out once and only once
If a person does not respond
I don't reach out again...

Ever....

Except to her
But thats because I did her
Wrong , she didn't do me wrong

Totally Tubular