Thank you all..heading to hospital now..
surgery is at 9..
And see my struggle
And im just forming thisI used the "I'll show everyone "
Mentality to make myself successfulBut I have nothing left to prove
There ....That is no longer a motivator
So then what is ?
Good day all
My mother didn't
Think we were worth
Saving from my father ..She didn't want to be a single
Woman
Didn't believe in divorce
We just weren't important enough
And im pretty sure ...
She learned it was ok from her father
When your parents don't
Love you ...There , there is the hole
The bottomless pit that
Swallows everything...That voice that says I'm no good
out
Couch1 has started a new game with the following players:
Couch1
*wandering through*
xx
I have to stop thinking
I'm unlovable
To stop being ....
Needy maybe?Thst might not be the
Word....
But that feeling of
I guess ...
I'm so lucky ....
But it being one sided
Like I'm lucky to have found them
But ohhhhhh, they are
Cursed to have found meSee that voice that Tells you
You are no good
Tells you that your partner
Thinks your no good
Which when you think
About it
If they thought all these
Negative things about you
Why are they with you?When you logically
Break it down
It makes no senseSo I need to question
This voice and why the voice
Inside of me
Is my enemy and not my friend?How did I alienate me, from me ?
My mother hated herself
Her life
And she taught her children well
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That he is, styling and profiling as my mother would say.
peeks in while away…sure miss the cages and certainly miss Goddess
I have to take away
The power of my own personal
Bully .....The voice that would rather
See me a victim of my demons
A victim of the events that
Unfolded , that I was forced
To endureThe voice that continously
Tells me. I'm not good enoughThat mentally damages
Friendships
Relationships
Effects your thought process
Tells you lies ...Makes you believe
You do not deserve
The wonderful people
And things you do have
Robs you of enjoying
Them .....Robs you of life ....
The only person
Out to get me
Is meThe only person
That can take me down
Is me
The only person who
Can hold me down
Is me ....
Just in case i haven't missed you, Hello reetha :)
I am so sincerely sorry for the loss of your Mama. She is always with you. May you remember her as in her picture, smiling with and beautiful.Prays for you belle and all who loved her.
Which is why freedom
Of speech is the number 1
Thing on the constitutionNo voice, no power
You should never ever
For any reason
Support anything
That limits speech of any kindIf they can stop others
Right to speak
Then can stop everyone's
If you don't want to hear
Don't listenBut stopping people from speaking
Is the highest form
Of oppression
Slipping out to my dressing room