Morning sallie.

It must be Your bedtime, I didn’t wan to keep You awake.

Chat soon

Puts out the open for whispers and chat signs.

Rti interrupting…

~h

I mean
I'm the king of self defeating
Talk
Which I'm trying to
Bring to an end

This last couple of years
Of being a Zombie

Working to clean up
28 years
Of depression
Sickness
Living out every one
Of my traumas over and over

Letting my demons run wild
Letting them feed on my flesh
Eating me alive

Yes it is

See I haven't told a lie
In so long
Not sure I would no How anymore

I may not always be right
In what I say
But it's not a lie
But more ignorance
To the subject

Which if I find I am
On a particular
Subject I will
Research to a level of understanding
So I can at least
Grasp it enough
To speak coherently
On the subject

Whatever it is

I'd like to have a dream that was in the drawn Rebecca world...

Yes
Once you’ve felt those rt
It’s difficult, isn’t it

To find that feeling again…in vt

Wanders into the worlds of SOI and the waiting room.

Well let’s just say after being introduced to the crop , flogger and ropes r/t I really crave that again

If you go to 420bar

There is a mirror at the bottom
That is me ...

Reflecting you back

See I understand
What my shit is
And I know where my shit
Stops and other people's begin

And im not willing
To let anyone lay what is not mine
At my feet

~ chuckling~

pain slut?

Smiling. Mmmmmm yes

It can be disarming to people

Why because their not healed
They holding on
Giving it power to still
Affect them

Like a bug that they need
Plucked out
So the real them can come out

~ grinning~

And…. Do you like … punishment?

I have to be careful
Because I want to speak to thr person
On the inside
And many people
Don't want that person to speak

But that is what I'm interested in

Let's sit down
And get to know each other
But people don't want that
Too many secrets
Things hidden

Things that negatively effect them but they won't let go

Maybe one day I will be able to get into trouble again, but usually with trouble come punishment