New identity, new clothes, new pronouns

Sits here thinking everyone escaped the asylum

smiling

hey

Strides in looking at the pics

hello.....quiet room today

Discharge

GraDulra
test

well geez
i thought you'd know for sure

Prances

Hi rubee

What brings me here is mostly other women….and I have few limits……

She's pretty sure you get it ALL the time but it's the truth each and every time more than likely.

It was the hair that had captured her attention.
Not many can pull that off.
Not that they don't TRY... and fail, miserably.

As for you?
She has no idea if you do or not.
She's yet to see your face.

As bold as it was?
Yep she headed in your direction and actually tapped you on the shoulder.
Before you'd even had a chance to turn and put your fist in her face she'd stepped back.
You know?
Just in case.
And yes she'd actually said it

"Sorry for bothering you but I just had to see the face that belongs to eye catching hair"

charge

Wanna fool around? Explore our dirty predilections?

*waves over at you*

looks thru the pics

pets

Voice that echos across....

Yeah, you.

Soft laughter It's "ON" I've been moving my things down to his place, a little at a time.

And he was right...He feels like "Home"
Well, as close to "home" as anyone or anyplace will ever be, for me.

I guess that's true....We'll see.
I thought about you a lot while driving back up north from his place yesterday. I remembered you dancing up beside me at Pow Wow all those years ago. I remembered how handsome you looked in your regalia. I remembered how happy I felt that day. How you looked down at me and smiled....I felt love from you. At least I believed that I did.

I remembered every inch of you, head to toe....and every tiny nuisance of your face. I enjoy recalling...you... in that way.

I miss you....The YOU that I once thought I knew, not that person you revealed yourself to be those last few years. I try not to think about that part, THAT MAN. The first three years were heaven for me, and I'm glad I had that time. It cost me way too much in the end...But at least I have those early memories.

I'm not going to love this man the way I loved you. (With blind adoration, and my eyes filled with the sparkling fantasy of Orion's -- showy stars) I'm going to love him with my eyes wide open and fixed on reality. He's a good man...and he needs me, and I need him, and we can be happy and content together. He and I can fill in the empty spaces for one another, and oh how I long to be the sweetness in his life. I want him to feel loved and cherished. I want him to feel respected and admired too.

I heard "Conquistador" on the radio during that drive...and as always, I thought of you.

What a tragic tale you were.... Sigh Nothing good came of all that deception, Warrior. I'm pretty sure you came to realize that eventually.

Nothing at all.... nothing good for me and nothing good for you either.

My offering to you today:

Conquistador"

Conquistador your stallion stands in need of company
And like some angel's haloed brow
You reek of purity
I see your armour-plated breast has long since lost its sheen
And in your death mask face
There are no signs which can be seen

And though I hoped for something to find
I could see no maze to unwind

Conquistador a vulture sits upon your silver shield
And in your rusty scabbard now
The sand has taken seed
And though your jewel-encrusted blade has not been plundered still
The sea has washed across your face
And taken of its fill

And though I hoped for something to find
I could see no maze to unwind

Conquistador there is no time
I must pay my respect
And though I came to jeer at you
I leave now with regret
And as the gloom begins to fall
I see there is no aureole
And though you came with sword held high
You did not conquer, only die

And though I hoped for something to find
I could see no maze to unwind

And though I hoped for something to find
I could see no maze to unwind.
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I won't be here much anymore.
But I'll look in now and then.

Rest easy my long-lost Love, please.....rest easy.

dances

and ... RT tugs again
good thing i'm fully dressed
~s~