all confused and stepping back to leaving for now

seeing that you understand

Would appear that, the straw has broke the camels back. The rumors, the gossip in Jag has always been toxic, with no positive out come. I left Jag a very long time ago because of that sort of thing and haven't been back since, except recently for the last few months, only because it was Lavanya's home.

I only ever wrote here, to support her and what she does and it would appear the gossip that's being spread out is the culprit to many writers leaving this site. Now, when people gossip about me, I don't care. Nothing anyone says here affects me in the way people hope as its been something I have been aware of for a long time. In part, now, Jag has lost five people in the last month because of gossip, false statements and hurtful words.

It has nothing to do with Gor. Its the people at the keyboards that are doing the damage. Jag really needs to look closely to those that do this and Jag will continue to dwindle.

I've never been one to support Gender Bending or people that have multiple characters. Never been my thing but I know that people do it, and we cannot do anything about that. However, with that being said, its not my place to tell people what they can and cannot do with their online time. Not my dime, not my time.

So, what happens is people try to send messages and whispers, trying to toxify people, causing hurt feelings and discouragement among writers that destroys the literature of so many great writers.

Lavanya has opted to shut down Turia for good. I was skeptical of this, but given the ruthless attacks on her character and the drama that has been building behind the scenes that none of us get to see except those that cause it, its unfortunate it has come to this.

The world is changing, and the people in it are too. What use to be normal thirty years ago is not the normal it is today. The Gor that didn't allow gender benders and or multi player people is long gone. My personal opinion isn't ever going to change on those two fronts but its also not my place to tell people they what they can and cannot do in that respect.

I might not like it but, then so what. I have forged close connections with people, and that to me is all that matters. Not what people whisper about, not what happens in the rooms, doesn't matter what the story is, but when I talk with the writers of those characters, I'm talking to people with a sense of humor, I talking with people that have heart, that have imagination and a whole lot of love.

The Gor I know isn't about who is playing who, or why their story is a certain way, it just doesn't matter. The point is being missed here folks. Connect with the people that are at the keyboard, and when that connection gets made, things fall into place. People tend to stop gender bending, they tend to stop being more than one character and this has been tested, tried and true. Just stop with the harassment and poison pens. Nothing ever good comes of it.

So, All my members in Portal of Dreams, which are half those that came from here, looking for a way out of the dark and are so done with Jag that I'm sorry to see the bridge get burned by closing Lavanya's Turia forever. It was working, our bridge connected people to one another. People that never saw Jag, now were exposed to it, and those that never knew about Port of Dreams were now seeing a whole different community. The toxicity of Jag has reached a breaking point.

It needs to stop.

So, the stories that have been developed here are going to be transferring out of Jag permanently. I will not be renewing my account, nor will the five other people that have left this place. There just isn't a reason to stay any longer.

I attempted to discourage this from happening but, sometimes, enough is enough. I really had hoped that after all these years away that it might have become better, but really its just become worse. No one is taking responsibility for their actions on what they say and how they say it to people. I can only hope the next generation will do better because this is getting old.

Turia is closing it's doors to the public only. If you as a writer whom wants to participate in what's going on in Turia, special invite will only be given to a select few. There is no more welcoming people of Jag into a thriving city that has now over twenty new members. The life of Turia is stronger than it ever has been before and it will continue to grow, but not with the poison pen writers that try to manipulate situations and people.

Turia is very much here, but it'll be made available to only select few. Request to enter is and will be made mandatory.

If you wish to talk or have questions about this, my mail is open. Be any name you want to be, doesn't matter except for the person at the keyboard.

Tarik

Ja siche, siche!

so the face leather is a halter .....hmmmmmmmmmmm

putting things together and relising thei is a stable of Huma

watching you closely
it's face distorted by the straps of the halter
one circling its head at forehead level
one coming fron above crossing that strap in the middle of the forehead, then parting like an upside down "Y", the ends running over its cheeks and ending in rings at the corner of its mouth to which the bit is hooked as well
seeing you stepping back as it whinnies
silencing instantly
not intending to shy you away
remembering how good your hand felt

trying to understand the face mask of leather strips
the hoof boots makes me smile
think it must be more than uncomfortable with the arms restrained like that

stepping back as the boy is whinnying

sssssssssshhhhhh.....knowing somebody might show up

standing exactly in front of you
more naked than dressed
only clad in hoof boots, that collar and halter
and its arms tied behind its back in a box tie
nipples pierced and ringed
not visible below the waist as it stands pressed against the lower half of the door
whinnying to answer your greeting
slightly moving its upper body up and down

stopping to face the creature
which appears to be an obvious male dressed in leather

like a stallion i suppose

hello there

Pffft....out

Ehrin has started a new game with the following players:
Ehrin

" S T A R T G A M E : t r u e "{ " g a m e I d " : " 1 7 1 5 8 1 0 0 7 8 " , " p l a y e r L i s t " : [ " e h r i n " ] , " r o l l N u m b e r " : 0 , " c u r r e n t P l a y e r " : 0 , " d i c e " : { " f a c e s " : [ 0 , 0 , 0 , 0 , 0 ] , " r e r o l l " : [ t r u e , t r u e , t r u e , t r u e , t r u e ] } , " s c o r e 0 " : { " 1 " : n u l l , " 2 " : n u l l , " 3 " : n u l l , " 4 " : n u l l , " 5 " : n u l l , " 6 " : n u l l , " p l a y e r " : n u l l , " u p _ t o t a l " : n u l l , " b o n u s " : n u l l , " 3 k " : n u l l , " 4 k " : n u l l , " s s " : n u l l , " l s " : n u l l , " f h " : n u l l , " y a h _ t o k e n " : n u l l , " y " : n u l l , " c " : n u l l , " y a h _ b o n u s " : 0 , " b o t _ t o t a l " : n u l l , " g _ t o t a l " : n u l l } , " o w n e r " : " e h r i n " , " s t a t u s " : " r e a d y " , " r o u n d " : 0 , " l a s t P o s t " : 1 7 1 5 8 1 0 0 7 8 }

watching as you come closer
down the aisle
its head in something similar to a horse's halter
even a leather coated steel bit in its mouth
preventing coherent speech

I finally got my liver doctor to agree that I'm getting worse, not better, so he wants to reactivate me for a liver xplant. There's no other way to make this better. I almost certainly won't survive the surgery and recovery, but at least now we now know there's no other choice. I have to meet with the doctor and a surgeon one more time, but hopefully after that they'll put me back on the list. Right now my life expectancy is two years or less, so it's tme to get on with it. Better to go down swinging than to wither away like I am now, in misery every day.

Ehrin has started a new game with the following players:
Ehrin

" S T A R T G A M E : t r u e "{ " g a m e I d " : " 1 7 1 5 8 0 9 9 6 0 " , " p l a y e r L i s t " : [ " e h r i n " ] , " r o l l N u m b e r " : 0 , " c u r r e n t P l a y e r " : 0 , " d i c e " : { " f a c e s " : [ 0 , 0 , 0 , 0 , 0 ] , " r e r o l l " : [ t r u e , t r u e , t r u e , t r u e , t r u e ] } , " s c o r e 0 " : { " 1 " : n u l l , " 2 " : n u l l , " 3 " : n u l l , " 4 " : n u l l , " 5 " : n u l l , " 6 " : n u l l , " p l a y e r " : n u l l , " u p _ t o t a l " : n u l l , " b o n u s " : n u l l , " 3 k " : n u l l , " 4 k " : n u l l , " s s " : n u l l , " l s " : n u l l , " f h " : n u l l , " y a h _ t o k e n " : n u l l , " y " : n u l l , " c " : n u l l , " y a h _ b o n u s " : 0 , " b o t _ t o t a l " : n u l l , " g _ t o t a l " : n u l l } , " o w n e r " : " e h r i n " , " s t a t u s " : " r e a d y " , " r o u n d " : 0 , " l a s t P o s t " : 1 7 1 5 8 0 9 9 6 0 }

curiosity moving my legs as i approach the peeking
leather covered head

Ehrin has started a new game with the following players:
Ehrin

" S T A R T G A M E : t r u e "{ " g a m e I d " : " 1 7 1 5 8 0 9 8 4 7 " , " p l a y e r L i s t " : [ " e h r i n " ] , " r o l l N u m b e r " : 0 , " c u r r e n t P l a y e r " : 0 , " d i c e " : { " f a c e s " : [ 0 , 0 , 0 , 0 , 0 ] , " r e r o l l " : [ t r u e , t r u e , t r u e , t r u e , t r u e ] } , " s c o r e 0 " : { " 1 " : n u l l , " 2 " : n u l l , " 3 " : n u l l , " 4 " : n u l l , " 5 " : n u l l , " 6 " : n u l l , " p l a y e r " : n u l l , " u p _ t o t a l " : n u l l , " b o n u s " : n u l l , " 3 k " : n u l l , " 4 k " : n u l l , " s s " : n u l l , " l s " : n u l l , " f h " : n u l l , " y a h _ t o k e n " : n u l l , " y " : n u l l , " c " : n u l l , " y a h _ b o n u s " : 0 , " b o t _ t o t a l " : n u l l , " g _ t o t a l " : n u l l } , " o w n e r " : " e h r i n " , " s t a t u s " : " r e a d y " , " r o u n d " : 0 , " l a s t P o s t " : 1 7 1 5 8 0 9 8 4 7 }

neighing
trying to shake its head
but that doesn't really work as its head is held tight in a contraption of leather straps buckled to its high posture collar
wondering if it should warn you
if you know what's going on around here
or if you might get snatched and put into one of these stalls, naked and bound, just like him

Ehrin has started a new game with the following players:
Ehrin

" S T A R T G A M E : t r u e "{ " g a m e I d " : " 1 7 1 5 8 0 9 7 2 4 " , " p l a y e r L i s t " : [ " e h r i n " ] , " r o l l N u m b e r " : 0 , " c u r r e n t P l a y e r " : 0 , " d i c e " : { " f a c e s " : [ 0 , 0 , 0 , 0 , 0 ] , " r e r o l l " : [ t r u e , t r u e , t r u e , t r u e , t r u e ] } , " s c o r e 0 " : { " 1 " : n u l l , " 2 " : n u l l , " 3 " : n u l l , " 4 " : n u l l , " 5 " : n u l l , " 6 " : n u l l , " p l a y e r " : n u l l , " u p _ t o t a l " : n u l l , " b o n u s " : n u l l , " 3 k " : n u l l , " 4 k " : n u l l , " s s " : n u l l , " l s " : n u l l , " f h " : n u l l , " y a h _ t o k e n " : n u l l , " y " : n u l l , " c " : n u l l , " y a h _ b o n u s " : 0 , " b o t _ t o t a l " : n u l l , " g _ t o t a l " : n u l l } , " o w n e r " : " e h r i n " , " s t a t u s " : " r e a d y " , " r o u n d " : 0 , " l a s t P o s t " : 1 7 1 5 8 0 9 7 2 4 }

noticing a head peeking over the low stall door

looking around and wondering if i have been spotted
by someone or a camera