and the more I could lie to
you
get you to believe me
the more power I felt I had

there is multiple reasons for
that , her influence
the bullying
the molestation

molestation took away boundaries

the bullying took away
my self worth
my mother taught me
abuse was love

so guess hat I believed self love was??

Count me in. Will offer whatever help in woodworking I can and c will post imgs of my projects

first morning I woke without a headache

Mommy taught me well

I told you
A good portion of my
Life, I was a lying
Narcissistic asshole
Who gave whatever
Version of myself
Someone wanted

To get what I wanted out of them

After all this time
I am definitely
Recovering from it

And it's been a long road

But I still have problems
Confusing abuse and love ...

I love in today's
Society how women
Complain
About men
How men treat women

Your mothers raised the men you hate

Your mother's were the role models for the men you
Date

There were no other
I love you's

They were just bait

For me..

Thst goes back to mommy

She was a narcissistic cold bitch
Growing up
The only time you
Heard the words
I love you

Was after you got
Beat to a sniffling asshole

Or you got raped
Or whatever happened
Thst she needed to reel you
Back in

kneeling.. hello cherry

That has gotten
Me into so much trouble
I've taken so much abuse

Kicks in the face

No no they love me

Walks in

An early morning start.

I have a really good lie detector

But I have this heart
These emotions
Man they want to believe
Give the benefit
Of the doubt ..

Even tho the alarm
Bell is going off in my head

It's like I hit the snooze
Button ..

Just five more minutes

Looking around my old haunt

looking in for my Mistress

Then you start lying
To yourself about them
Because you want to believe
God you want to